[bella.golightly]

Fitblr.
24 years//5'2"
Gonna be a smokin hot girlfriend.

Cycle commuter.
Trying to eat clean.
Aspiring runner.
sw: 149
cw: ~125
ugw: 120 & firm
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I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my struggles with food and disordered
eating, and I’m starting to realize that for the most part these issues are
linked with loneliness. I’ve never been able to enjoy being alone; I’m an
extrovert and will always feel uplifted when I’m surrounded by people and
attention. Another problem is I hate how much attention I require. It makes
me feel needy and weak. Most of my food binges come when I’m alone and/or
bored. Sometimes I get serious cravings when I’m home alone with my
boyfriend but he’s playing a videogame/reading/generally not paying
attention to me when I want him to. I get so restless and anxious and bored
and usually that results in me snacking to distract myself. I think it’s
also linked to anxiety, since my worst vice is snacking at work (at a
restaurant) both when it’s slow and there’s nothing to do and when we’re
slammed and I’m so exhausted and desperately hungry but don’t have the
time/patience/resources to find something healthy. Taking a time out to eat
a cup of chili or snack on some fries is usually the fastest way to tame my
stress. The worst part of this that I’ve experienced is in college when I
was having serious friendship problems tied to being lonely from a
long-distance relationship. My friends were starting to reject me and I
felt neglected, so I would try to starve myself and eat as little as
possible to try and get them to notice I was sad and depressed and needed
them. I wanted so badly for someone to reach out to me and ask me what was
wrong that I’d only eat in secret and sit in the dining hall full of people
with a few cucumbers on my plate. It didn’t work, and I became more and
more desperate until I finally gave up and realized how to cope with being
alone. My coping mechanism was exercise. I could use my free time where I
usually felt lonely by going to the gym for hours and distracting myself
from my feelings. Although this was healthier than starving myself or
binging on junk food, I was still avoiding the real problem which is why I
can’t handle being alone. I spent most of my childhood alone since I was an
only child and didn’t have neighbors to hang out with. I think I could deal
with that pretty well, and I was even happy when my sister was born when I
was 11 cause it meant my parents would leave me alone more and not bother
me. But for some reason ever since I started dating and developing more
serious friendships with my peers, I just cannot stand being by myself or
being ignored by friends. I’m not really sure what to do with this
revelation and big wall of text, but I just wanted to kind of get my ideas
down to give myself time to reflect on it. Maybe someone can give me
suggestions of how to deal with loneliness besides food and exercise.

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mrcheyl:

Michelle Monaghan [x]

mrcheyl:

Michelle Monaghan [x]

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funeralformyfat:

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Lol

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fitness-fits-me:

fitness blog :)

fitness-fits-me:

fitness blog :)

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aleven11:

We love my early dinners! eating a few hours before sleep has it’s benefits, it’s gives your system time to digest your food so when you do rest it’s using energy to restore your body instead of trying to break the food down and digest it. That way when you wake up you feel fresh, rested and ready to smash breakfast! And it gives you more time chill out before bed💤 Rice pasta with spinach and avo topped with a low fat low sodium tomato sauce 👌
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aleven11:

We love my early dinners! eating a few hours before sleep has it’s benefits, it’s gives your system time to digest your food so when you do rest it’s using energy to restore your body instead of trying to break the food down and digest it. That way when you wake up you feel fresh, rested and ready to smash breakfast! And it gives you more time chill out before bed💤 Rice pasta with spinach and avo topped with a low fat low sodium tomato sauce 👌

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Does anyone else struggle with trying to eat healthy but working in the food and beverage industry? My strategy for healthy eating the the past has always been avoiding temptation through grocery shopping and skipping restaurants but now it’s literally my job to be around indulgent food all day. What should I do??? Especially when I’m exhausted and starving but the only thing available is chicken fingers and fries. It’s mostly mental cause there are a few healthy options but it’s so hard to resist the tasty stuff. Help.

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flyfella:

evolutionofafitgeek:

liveasbravemen:

“I like clothes now. I have more energy. I sleep better. My sex drive is up. Blood’s flowing. I’m less susceptible to impulse. I’m in a different mode. When I was way out of shape, the idea of using whitening strips on my teeth seemed terrible. I have to do that every day? I’ll never do it. What you want is instant results when you’re out of shape. You want your teeth whitened in 45 minutes with the use of lasers. But when you’re in shape, you know it’s the result of doing a little bit every day. Moments aren’t just moments. A moment might be a week or a month. So instead of Boy, I’d love to eat this hamburger right now, I’m considering a little further into the future. I’m thinking, I eat that hamburger and that’s 1,200 calories, and I’m gonna work out tomorrow and lose 800 calories. I may as well eat a salad here, still do that workout, and then I’m actually making progress.” — Chris Pratt

This just motivated the fuck out of me.

And people are like “he hates being fit and he can’t wait to get chubby again” lol okay ya’ll get woke

flyfella:

evolutionofafitgeek:

liveasbravemen:

I like clothes now. I have more energy. I sleep better. My sex drive is up. Blood’s flowing. I’m less susceptible to impulse. I’m in a different mode. When I was way out of shape, the idea of using whitening strips on my teeth seemed terrible. I have to do that every day? I’ll never do it. What you want is instant results when you’re out of shape. You want your teeth whitened in 45 minutes with the use of lasers. But when you’re in shape, you know it’s the result of doing a little bit every day. Moments aren’t just moments. A moment might be a week or a month. So instead of Boy, I’d love to eat this hamburger right now, I’m considering a little further into the future. I’m thinking, I eat that hamburger and that’s 1,200 calories, and I’m gonna work out tomorrow and lose 800 calories. I may as well eat a salad here, still do that workout, and then I’m actually making progress.” — Chris Pratt

This just motivated the fuck out of me.

And people are like “he hates being fit and he can’t wait to get chubby again” lol okay ya’ll get woke

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sabooooo
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